Keeping my purpose firm....

I am sick of all the hate.

I am over all the petty ridiculous feelings we as humans tend to nonchalantly just throw out to each other.

Not everyone in this free world is going to get along. People need to suck it up and realize that. Does that mean we need to throw harsh words to these people? Talk behind their backs? Give them dirty looks or just stare them down daring them to say anything?

NO.

People need to start coming to their own conclussions about others in this world. I am so sick of the people that aren't going to like someone else because so and so doesn't like them, or jealousies about other friendships these people may have to someone they are close to.

People need to grow up and realize NO one has any right to dislike anyone else just by something someone has said about that person. No one has any good reason to dislike someone by a look they were given, they have no idea what that person is going through at that moment. They have no idea if that is just "their look". It doesn't matter.

We all should have been taught to treat others the way you yourself want treated. That should always mean that unless someone personally gave you a reason not to like them then that is your choice whether you should continue to associate with them. It doesn't mean you have to belittle that person, it doesn't mean you should feel the need to call that person names or remind yourself why you don't like them. It means that you respect yourself enough to walk away from something that YOU know for a fact (it wasn't a story told to you, it wasn't peer pressured onto you, it wasn't brainwashed into you) is not what you believe or is not what you want to spend your quality time with.

It is your choice. But I want everyone to be sure that your choice whole heartedly 100% came from YOU.

Your thoughts. Your experiences. Your associations.

I will admit, I have made these choices that were not 100% mine.
I will admit, I have made poor judgements against people I did not personally know by their "attitude" or their "intimidating tendencies" and God somehow turned it around to MAKE me personally know them and they are great people that I love.
I will admit I have been told by several of my friends that I was one of those attitudey or intimidating people to some of my friends, and I have been told personally that at first they really didn't know what to think of me. I have been there, done that.
I will admit, I will probably be there and do that again, but I hope by this turn around I so badly want to see happen to many of the people of the world I myself will say "What the hell am I doing?" and smile, nod or give a hello often to those people. You never know where a good friend may be waiting in the wings just for the perfect opportunity to approach.

It has been a hard several days to so many I know. I have teared up more often than I can count. I have had horrible "what if" thoughts. I have taken significantly longer looks at a certain house that we drive by everyday, looked longingly at a wooden platform of a skater. Thought thoughts about never seeing that skater out in his driveway or on his porch just being the kid he was. I have thought about our oldest not ever being able to see one of his greatest friends again. I have thought how if this is hurting me as much as it is, how it has to be hurting our boy so much more. I have wondered if he can really handle it. I have wondered how his family is getting by each day. Each minute. Each passing hour. It hurts. It hurts to know and hear that so many people loved this boy and how they are all saying he never knew an enemy or had a hateful word to say about anyone. And he is gone. In the blink of an eye. I think of how great of a kid he had to have been and wonder why people, this world, has to be without someone with such a heart for everything and everyone, no matter who or what you were.

It makes me think.
It makes me wonder.
It makes me rethink.

I am sorry for judging anyone falsely. I am sorry for saying rude hateful things about people that I really don't know. From now on I am going to live like everyone can be my friend. Like everyone is each others friend. I am done with the hate. I am done with the negative thoughts.

From now on I judge who is my friend. My thoughts. My experiences. My heart.

Petty ridiculous nonsense needs to go by the wayside. In your home life and in your social life. It's useless. It's hurtful. It doesn't really make us who we are. Who we were meant to be.

You never know what you're missing if you close your heart or your mind.
You  never know who you're missing....

I don't want to miss another minute of my life being rude. I want to be happy and calm and appreciative of everyone and everything.

I hate that I didn't "see it" before now....

ISAIAH 26:3 For you, Lord give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you.