Ramblage....Go figure.

I haven't written in FOREVER!!! I seriously NEED to get into the habit of writing something everyday. Either writing or posting a picture or 9 =)

I am really really thinking hard about giveaways. Maybe once a month or so...but something fun and exciting! Everyone like to win things for a reason or heck EVEN for NO reason, right???

I have tons of pictures that I need to upload on here. I have a few videos too. I will do that after I get my last load of laundry in. Because that is what my goal is for today. TO DO ALLLL OUR LAUNDRY. I am annoyed just thinking about it.

I just finished a wonderful book yesterday. It was all rainy, windy, cold and all around crappy here for the WHOLE weekend. THE WHOLE WEEKEND! About 7:10pm Sunday the sun decided to show itself. A little to late if ya ask me. Anyways, crappy weather = reading NON-STOP for me. The book was The Help. I could go on and on about the book and how it made me feel but I think that needs to be a whole seperate post in itself. I will write it this week sometime, when I am feeling brave. Maybe after a glass or 4 of wine ;) Ohhhhh speaking of wine...MY daughter is writing a paper on a Greek God!!! You are never gonna believe which one!!!!!! Get ready for it.....Dionysus-The Greek God of Wine & Festivity!!!! Coincidence?!?!? I THINK NOT!!! She couldn't wait to tell me. I am so proud my whole being is full of joy for her =)

I have this worthless feeling AGAIN. Gawddd it is so annoying, I mean I KNOW I am totally NOT a loser. Here I have been given this totally rockin' opportunity to write. And I have felt unworthy about it. I think I let people really get me down with negativity. I am not saying I don't get praise each and everytime I do write because I do. I am just thinking too much into it. ALOT. I'm ALWAYS thinking who the heck really reads me?! I am sure it is not just anyone..I mean what if the only people that read my R-M blog are people that know me, personally. And I always get great compliments on it from them. But, is that because they are my friends or family and they feel like they HAVE to give me "nice" compliments??? I know that is totally not healthy to think like that but I do. It is a little problem that I have had forever and a day...low self-esteem. WHY...WHY do the negative comments seem to stick in your head?? WHY do they take full front and center to ALL the wonderful comments?? Why?? I (with alot of help from my hubby) have come to the conclusion that I will just write. Write my heart out. Write with all my being. Write FOR my friends/family OR a perfect stranger. But most of all WRITE FOR ME! I want this to be a learning experience, I want something to come out of this-even though I have NO clue what that may be.

From now on...I will write. EVERY week for The R-M. EVEN if it is just a paragraph. I want people to start looking for me. To wonder what I have written this week. I want to do something astounding with this opportunity. Something. Anything.

I will also work the heck out of my personal blog. This is my goal. I am sick of just having it and doing NOTHING with it. It will definitely see some changes.

Okay, here is where I need YOU! I need tips. I need ideas. I need YOU to get the word out for both my blogs. I have a piddly 13...13!!! followers! I want more. Holllly Cow...I just had something HUGE hit me square in the head! HUGE!!!! THAT will be my 1st give-away!!!! ACHHHHHH!! Okay! Now, I'm officially EXCITABLED!!! (Yes people, that is totally a WORD)

Wow. I just totally rambled. Yikes.

((hugss))